start of meds and new design

Yay for new beginnings!!

As you can see, I found an adorably, hopeful, positive, smile inducing template from Small Bird Studio that I found out about while reading other blogs during ICLW. Sure, it's a syrupy sweet template, but I need some positive, hopeful mojo because....tonight is the first day of meds for IVF#5!! I have my meds, my protocol, there is no last minute chaos like the past four time. I start with Gan.irelix tonight, then again in three nights, then a check at the clinic three days after that in hopes that I will be nice and suppressed. I've always had troubled getting suppressed (and even more troubled getting stimmed...stupid body), so we are hoping for no cysts and a nice low e2. For now, I'm am just trying to be calm and enjoy life by doing a bit o' crafting, taking walks outside all bundled up, listening to calm music while slowing peddling on the gym bike and cooking. Plus, the mental image I've had the past few days of coming out of this with twins makes me smile. Yes, I know, I'm totally setting myself up for a big, hard fall...but all falls suck, so I might as well have it be a hard one. If nothing else, I am just happy to have this chance again, as we thought we'd never be able to try IVF again due to the cost and having no known protocol that we hadn't tried and failed yet--but here we are with insurance coverage and a new protocol at a new clinic. Yeah, this is a new beginning and I am hopeful today.