I hate IF urban legends, therefore...

...I hate me. For you. For me even. Urban legends give false hope and/or soul stabbing outcomes to fellow IF'ers.

Unfortunately, though, I seem to be one. A

After all we've been through, I find myself very gratefully unexpectedly five weeks pregnant, with two good looking betas and an u/s next Tuesday. The doc credits the repeat HSG and maybe the gluten free eating in case you're wondering.

Whatever the reason though, like I said, I hate me for you all and I would unfollow me for you if I could.

And if you say it's because I deserve this, I'll unfollow you, because we all deserve this.

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Regardless of how this all turns out, for as long as it lasts, this blog will talk about my pregnancy. I will not complain about it. Not a moment or a symptom. I will be the happiest, vomiting person on the planet. If I'm not, you have my every blessing to spam my comments section with hateful comebacks and immediately block me from your world. But I will positively document what's going on for my own sake because I want to live gratefully in every moment (no, I won't say that IF'ers can't complain...I just choose not to for everyone's sake involved). Also, you will not see pictures on here. I just can't bring myself to do that to anyone able to stick around. That's just crossing a line in my world (not judging others, just telling you where I stand for me).


As for my plea yesterday, I try to approach life how I would want to be treated--for me, reading things that pop up without warning is just plain awful, while suspecting that's what's coming isn't as bad--thus, I offered a warning to run while you could so you wouldn't have to see it in writing if you couldn't and/or didn't want to. Because if I were me reading this, I wouldn't be able to handle it. So I wouldn't fault you at all if you hit unfollow (or if you already have...but then you wouldn't have read this far...but either way, I still won't fault you). Like I said up there, I hate urban legends. They are torture to a veteran IF'ers soul. So, as I asked yesterday, please unfollow me for your own sake.

For those who are at a point in their own journey where they don't totally want to claw my eyes out and kick me repeatedly and thus choose to stick around, I stand in humble awe of you, as you are doing something I know I couldn't do because it would just be too painful.

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Whether this is my last post you read or not, I want to thank you for your support up to this point. You all are amazing at the kindness you bestow through your comments and shared hopes and frustration. If you're leaving me now, I desperately wish you peace and hope you get your a happily ever after, whatever the ends up looking like for you, sooner than later.