That's what I said to my wonderful RE today after he said he is moving me on to an ob. We've got a heartbeat (no idea rate b/c he machine is likely from the 70's and just really isn't that cool), but it was beating regularly and looked "beautiful" to him. I called my new high risk ob and got an appt 10 days from now with no yelling at the scheduler to make it sooner needed.
Am I jumping for joy? Yes....and no, sort of...we've been here before, we've seen heartbeats, we've graduated to a high risk ob, only to have the first ob appt show no heartbeats (yeah, that makes you memorable to an ob...hey doc, we had three heartbeats...until you scanned me and now we have none...nice to meet you.) Anyways, regardless, I am cautiously excited, as most infertility veterans would be at this point I think.
I'm just ecstatic to be here today with a heartbeat and a situation that thus far is going worlds better than the previous pregnancy ever went. I guess you can say that given our past experience and our present knowledge about all that can still go wrong, we are holding this very tightly and very loosely at the same time and just happy to be along for the ride.
I hope you never have to go back, too. But, as I am in a similar place, holding tightly, but loosely makes total sense. You will have to let me know if you like your OB. I did not have a good experience with my last pregnancy/birth, so if I make it to an OB, I'd like to try a different practice.
ReplyDeleteI bet that heartbeat was just a beautiful sound! I am so happy you are moving on to the ob. I am praying that the next 8 months are very peaceful and calm.
ReplyDeleteI hope you're never his patient again, too.
ReplyDeleteHope you never see that guy again! It's a hard balance to strike, isn't it? Hopeful but cautious at the same time. Sounds like you're doing well though. xx
ReplyDeleteHooray for a heartbeat! One step at a time...sending you peaceful vibes.
ReplyDeleteCongrats on a great heartbeat!
ReplyDeleteI'm so happy to hear this news! I hear you about balancing hope and caution. Some days I want to just shout it out, but most of the time I can't believe it. One step at a time, right?
ReplyDeleteCongrats again on the good news!
I really really hope that everything goes smoothly and with flying colors at your next appointment!
ReplyDeleteWoohoo for seeing that perfect little heartbeat!!
ReplyDeleteI can't read your last paragraph with out the song "hold on loosely, but don't let go" going through my head. I hope that everything goes smoothly at your next appointment. And I don't think your RE was offended that you hope to never see him again, I can imagine the feeling is mutual. ;)
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